Beginners Mind. Beginners Body.Jan 31, 2021
This picture you see here - that's me with my full-on ugly face cry. Dancing and shedding, yet again, another layer of that which no longer serves...
I took a break from teaching Nia in September to create space for diving into my business. This was not a decision taken lightly. To step away from the very thing that defined me for the last 13 years felt a little crazy and slightly irresponsible. At the same time, necessary.
I imagined that even though I wasn't going to be teaching classes regularly, I would still find playful and fun ways to stay connected with my dance community. But that's not what happened. In fact just the opposite. I ended up letting go of any regular movement practice altogether. It turned out to be an unplanned experiment that I've learned so much from.
So here I am in this moment of truth. Breaking the inertia to get moving again feels intense. I'm excited and relieved and also a little intimidated.
When I was in a place of dancing/teaching regularly it wasn't easy for me to truly understand how hard it might be for someone to get themselves to a class, or make the time, or change a habit. I was already committed after all.
Well, once I stopped, I definitely felt the ease of NOT showing up to move and now have a very different relationship with getting started.
When I did manage to get to classes over the last four months, I noticed I had very little endurance which showed up as lots of water breaks. I noticed my core felt weak, my feet ached, and my body was sore the next day. I can't tell you how long it's been since I had felt those things.
When I say, I'm returning with a beginner's mind and beginner's body, I'm not exaggerating. AND It actually turned out to be a gift. I have a new understanding, compassion, and respect for what it takes for someone/myself to get going. On the flip side, I'm left with a deeper sense of gratitude and appreciation for those who sustain their commitment to showing up.
I honor you no matter where you are along your own journey.
A note to all of you who feel like it's hard to make something you know is good for you happen - I see you.
How can I support you in getting back to class with me?
So here we going... getting going again...
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